She looked at me in dismay and told me that I would never find what I was looking for. A bold statemrnt from such a beautiful woman. I never truly understood why she had the need to say anything like that, as if purposefully punishing me for something I hadn't done.
This was a daily displeasure that I endured throughout my short stint with a woman I will leave nameless. Beautiful in everyway, except her patience. When she decided to end something, there was no discussion. Her way or the highway. I precisely remember my constant statement that was, "As always, the ball is in your court and it is your decision to make."
I should have known from the beginning, but I was blind and drunk with lust and endearment. I had been heartbroken before, not just once at that. The thing I realized early on is that this is not something healthy or sustainable and maybe I can just get a couple good hits in, it would be worth it.
Ghosts of the past always seem to haunt you when you think you are moving in the direction of the future. How difficult it is to see through those rose colored lenses.
