Success

"I dedicate my life to learning, not to success." I said this to my farther today and he nearly was choked up. I found it funny, enlightening almost. I found that missing puzzle piece I was looking for today. Time to finish it tomorrow.

The Ranch

One year later and this shit turned upside down. It went from fabulous and wonderful to just shit. I used to love working for Carmel Valley Ranch but the management has made this place a nightmare. Maybe I should said the lack there of management and leadership. It's always been said if you want to do something right you do it yourself funny thing is our management delegates everything to everyone else. It's a far cry from management. It reminds me of a freshman in college telling a bunch of seniors the best way to pass classes.

The food and beverage director is a joke. The night manger is a joke. I'm really losing patience. It's hard to put up a smiling face and deal with this day in day out grind. I'm done if nothing changes

Another day

I've been busy. I've been having trouble finding time to spend with my mom. It then occurs that you want all of my time, the time I can't even give to my mother or father. I told you I couldn't meet your expectations. And now I've lost that spark due to the need that I can't please. Sorry. But I'm on another path than you and I hold the reins

Tucked away

It's a long time coming. I've been in this little town for nearly 12 years now. I'm expanding and heading out of state to an undisclosed location, for a week away from it all. I don't know why but I am excited as ever and really ready to experience such an awesome opportunity away from my closest and dearest relatives, friends, etc. I'll be on a mission, solo. Nobody but myself and my accomplishments to rely on. Scary, no. Exhilarating, yes. I've been discovering new things about myself in this time of change. No girlfriends to hold me back from discovering love, no parents to bug out over dumb things. Just me myself and I. Living in a world full of individualists, I am a humanist loving my fellow man and woman for what they are and what they perceive themselves to be. We all have an image of ourselves, but that never matches others images of you. The truth is the real you is tucked away and inside. And it won't be let out until the day you, yourself, let it. Be comfortable with yourself, learn to embrace flaws of yourself and others and just live to live. Enjoy every second. Otherwise why live at all. Sink in, dig deep, and love life.